SY/\ffY :D

i feel like posting.. yea.
i feel kinda sad here.. but... i really want to put my sadness aside first! but he is the one who always making me sad.. well, its very complicated now. seriously.
you always said, i wont talk to you, so you wont feel sad.. but you're always the one....always the first to msg me. sighh. you keep saying "okay we wont talk" but you msged me first. but do you know that, when everytime you say "okay we wont talk" i feel even more sad? sighh..
and so, on 28th of april, sumone asked me to be his gf, i was pretty shocked and i was thinking that, maybe its your plan, and you're asking that someone to asked me.. i keep thinking that. i ignored that msg, well not really, i told that someone i wasnt ready, and days after, my thinkings are RIGHT. yea, so this was what you said "okay, the truth is that...i didnt want to leave you.. i really really love you.. but HE was single and he still love you.. so i give you to him.. i will do anything to make him happy.. and you.. i dont care im hurt or what..i just want to see you happy with him... so please accept him... sorry i have to let you go): i love you):"
thats what you said.. you will do anything to make him happy?? what about me? if youre hurt, i am too. gahhh. i really dont know what to say..
and den you msg me again.. " i will be sad for my whole life... sad to see someone i love, love someone else"
sighh, im really speechless. people do give in, but they dont give in their gf. plz la. common sense. you tried to convince me to love him.. you cant. you tried to promise me things just to make me happy, does'nt work. you tried everything, but it never make me happy. cuz the decision you just made, to let go of me for your bestfriend, is the stupidest.
whatever it is, i still love you ):