these words are always in my head.

if i were to ask you, who are you closer with? Your answer will definately be "that person" rite?
why is everything happening so fast? Why?
you both just make friends. Is like i just blink my eyes once, you both are close already..
i tried not to think too much, but i think i cant.
if i never make friends with you, i guess nothing will happen.. "that person" wont be friends with you either!
im sad, definately. im hurt, badly.
i cnt find words to decribe this feeling. Its worst then sad and as bad as hurt.
thank you you. you're sucessful in every little thing you do.
im a failure and im nothing now.
just let everything be. cuz i cant improve anything.
syaffy out~

HEllO :D
im babababababababack from chalet :D
its funfunfun yaknow.
im a comp addict yet i forgot about pc. wow? yea wow.
hahah, so yea. first day check in, did alot of stuff. okay.
i have to entertain the kids and that really makes me tired.
i have to carry the dispenser in and out of the chalet like more then 20 times! full! filled with water.
tired ya know. but the kids have fun. good la. Lol.
den aft that, after entertaining them i go sit and eat. HAHAH! with youngest bro, eldest bro, his gf, and soon later cousins join. finished 3 packets of ritz. HAHAHA! eat with tuna! nicenice(Y)
den watch tv. den eat nutella next. wah, i dunnoe i why i cant stop eating the nutella. Lol.
den aft that...................................what happen? idk? forget.
at night-bbq! haha, set up the canvas. hahha! woah the wind very strong, i can fly XD really nvr lie. we (me aunt and uncle) tried to tie the canvas. takes alot of energy/strength. i pulled the string like oucchhhh, pulled the canvas like very hard. we take like more den 15 minutes. LOL US :D
okay so. aft that, bbq! i keep going in and out of chalet. wah, tired leh.. must take things...
den ard 10? cut the cake. ard 1030 youngest cousin+bro open present. haha
ard 11 i felt stinky so go bathe.
oh again, im dumb. I STUPIDLY BATHE COLD WATER. DAMN COLD LA. FREEZING. DEN YEA, I CANT SLEEP. IM TOO FRESH! DEN I STAY AWAKE TILL 230! with aunt and youger cousin. damn funny. same thing happen to uncle. we forgot on the heater. he was freezing too! haha! den we played bingo and hangman. hahaha! damn funny la! everybody sleep alrd, we laughed very loud, until sis woke up and watch us play LOL
OH MY YOUNGER COUSIN, HAZIQ, IS A BUSTED. HE SIT ON MY KNEES AND FARTED AWHILE LATER! FREAK!!!
den played hangman, the words all very crappy la. laugh until i drink and the water in my mouth all come out. LOL!-.-
so 230 very sleepy den go sleep. haziq waited for his dad to come back from fishing which i dunnoe what time. haha
okay next morning woke up bathe. breakfast. and stuff
sumthin happen dun want mention.
sit in the bedroom, very sian, play my guitar. record.... but deleted . zzzz me
den later everythings back to normal. we played outside the chalet. all like dogs. HAHAHA!
yea, i bearfoot play at the grass, haziq followed. play catching and all kinds of games. till we roll on the grass like dogs. YEA DOGS! hahaha, very dirty.
oh ya, from 12 plusplus, i CANT believe i entertained brenda. YA BRENDA! talk crap.till 5 plusplus
keep saying shes the president. right, PRESIDENT OF THE STICK SOCIETY.
and you knw what, im WOOD-.-
keep talking crap. about MONEY! i sent her 100000 via sms. HAHA! crappy rite. talk stuff, thats super lame.
stupid stick.
okay so night packpack, get ready to go home. sad to leave the chalet.
left chalet at 9?
reach home strraight awy sleep. damn tired.
today; rot at home. zzz -.-
kay thats all.
oh lastly.
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY BROTHER :D

hello :D
haiizz, kinda bored, cant sleep?
tmrw going chalet.. stay over till wednesday. at changi D:
no laptop! ohoh, fyi, i cant survive without pc, like seriously.
mum says im a comp addict.. tsk.
nvm.. 2 days only. i have to like.... control myself la.
next year N-level, and i can guaranteed i wont be able to use it.
woah, thts gonna be like how many months, woahhhh.
laptop, gonna miss you.
kay im crappy here D:

hey, im gonna stop being so jealous for nothing.
i have to stop thinking too much. ccoonnttrrooll..
yea, dont think so much and nothings gonna happen.
but like what my previous post said, that sumone have always been cutting my way.
just have to bear with it yea. that person have always been successful in everthing he/she did.
im nothinggg. i will try toooo.... just shut up and just shut up.\
zzzz me.\
kay im out~ 1210am

When im up to sumthing, someone will just have to cut my way.
that someone is always succesfull.
im nothing now.
syaffy, out~


i miss him, i miss S.I.S.A, i miss 16, i miss 5.
i miss everybody.
say what you wanna say, idont care. wait, that person dont even knw im talking abt him/her
bleh.

S.I.S OUTING FT. AHMAD! :D
HAHAH, he joined us now... so its... S.I.S.A :D
COOL. hahah. totally had fun today. but tiring ah.. yeah. tiring.
first, left house to dover, waited for siyan.. after that, waited for isaac and ahmad for more den half an hour! gahhh!
haha but nvm. off to cityhall. joke in the train.. keep laughing-.- isaac mom pervert siaa.. HAHAH
jk, but no offence eh. HAHA inside joke la.
reached cityhall walked to penin. then siyan keep saying shes hungry. cant decide where to eat, atlast eat at the indian muslim shop. And ofcuz! i eat my all time favourite mee goreng! HAHAH.
isaac ask for curry just like that. HAHAH we laughed. hes a retard. in the end, we eat the same thing. isaac so NOOB! we asked for spicy. but it wasnt spicy at all for god sake! isaac is like " hssshsss! aaahhh spicy. i need water" for me ahmad and siyan is nothing. wasnt spicy at all la!
crazy isaac. hes the only one suffering. NOOB! hahah, no offence but seriously.
so aft that isaac went in church to drink water cooler! hahah.
den walked to OC! OrchardCentral :D take photossss while walking :D
hahahaha. i rmmbr this part.

Ahmad; singing* "when you look me in the eyes....tell me that u love mee......."
isaac; i love you..
Ahmad; *points middle finger*

HAHAH. wth. i laughed at isaac.
reached OC, went to buy drink first cuz siyan was thirsty... went to sweettalk :D
den isaac and ahmad went to toilet. ahmad came out first den isaac. hahaha heard them talking.
isaac"i didnt knw u went out alrd. i was like calling ur name inside! i talking alone sia! lucky nobody inside toilet!" HAHAHAH, isaac dumb can? hahahah!
kay so off to level 12-roof garden:Dhahaha
we keep playing in the lift. from 11th floor to 9th floor to 1st floor. 1st floor go up again to 10th floor. down again to 1st floor, den up again. wah damn dizzy can. i felt like vomiting.. we keep laughing, and all like kiasu like that. laughlaughlaugh. den lift reach at idk what floor ppl come in, all act normal. hahah. wth.
OH YA. WHILE WALKING, I RECIEVED MSG FROM CHARMAINE. CRAZY LOR. SHE SPAMMED ME. THAT MSG CONSIST OF 10 PAGES! AND ONLY WITH THE WORD SPAM ALL THE WAY! WAHHHH, I TELL U, I WAS PRETTY DUMB, I SCROLLED DOWN ALL THE WAY TILL THE END. SERIOUSLY. NOTHING TO READ BUT THE WORD SPAMSPAMSPAM ALL THE WAY! TEN PAGES! WAH, I SWEAR AFTER THAT, MY INBOX FULL! THANKS UH CHARMAINE, THANKS.
okay moving on. walked to 313 somerset! damn crowded! siyan felt thirsty, AGAIN! haha so went all the way up to food republic. she bought plain water. wah the ppl very impatient. i felt like shouting. i bought milo. very EX! $2. tsktsktsk.
hahah, drinkdrink, jokejoke. den i need the toilet. went to the toilet. isaac and hmad was waiting outside. damn noisy. haha me and siyan joined them. played percussion outside toilet. LOL! ppl keep looking at us. isaac face damn paiseh. hamad keep smiling to passer-by[s]. HAHAH! den left tooooooooooooooooooo.. HMV. wahhh, we spent half an hour there, find/look for CDS! wah. den walk to somerset MRT. den taketake pictures while waiting for train. ppl are like looking at us. hahah heck care. alight at cityhall, change to east west line, i alight at outram and change to NOrth east line :D
reaCHED home and now currently uploading photos :D
okay so thats all! thanks S.I.S.A ! for today <3
syaffy, out ~

HELLO :D
back from OCIP! first, HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO SABRINA.
YAY.. FINALLY 15 (only ) :P!
hahahah.

HAD HELL LOTS OF FUN THERE, WISH I COULD TURN BACK TIME! OR EXTAND IT TO 2 WEEKS! EVERYBODY WANTS TOO! THEY DIDNT WANT TO GO HOME YESTERDAY!
HAHAHAH, PART 2 NEXT YEAR! YAY.
OKAY. PHOTOS ALL UPLOADED AT FACEBOOK. NOT ALL LA. BUT SOME.
SO GUESS THATS IT :D
BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :D


5th december 2009 was the 2nd year and 3rd month.
thanks for everything. Memories will always be kept.
and i'll never forget. what you said. what you told me.
every single word.
i make you happy. you made me happy. but in the end,
it ends with a sad ending. someone said something and pulled me away from you.
i didnt talked to you the whole day, guess i made you sad after making you happy.
you cried, but you didnt show. did you notice i observe? no, i acted i didnt see anything.
im sorry if ive hurt you. im really am. please frogive me.
i wasnt good enough to be there for you each time you need me.
cuz i dont think you need me cuz you already had one.
only i will know what i mean. you will understand if you read it. \
you will get sad after reading it.
i just want you to cheer up. dont be sad.
cuz if you are, im sad too.
bby, ILoveyou. Butithinkishouldnt ):

im enough of everything. Jealousy, Envy-ing, ignoring, and stuff.
i had enough. Jealous for what! jealous of me fo what! nothing to be jealous about!
kay, i dont wanna know anything. If youre jealous or what, keep it to yourself!
Thank you.

KAY hello people! tomorrow last day. den leaving for OCIP on monday. for A week.
yesssss. a week at malaysia.
im thinking of...................................composing a song. YAY! hahah! :D
yea, compose a song there. about.................not sure what. hahaha.
so composing a song about my friends(:

kay, today is saturday. you know im happy! but i dunnoe about what-.-

havent pack my back for OCIP! hahaha, last minute...

my guitar very nice alrd, i polished and replace string. yay iLike. spent 1 1/2 hours. Lol.

FAlling for you by Colbie Caillat is nice to play :D

im bored kay.

haizzzzzzzzzzzz D: